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well i am a great believer in destiny and i think today was a very good example of it. Somehow i slept yesterday at 10 and woke up at 9(am and not pm). then i found santya’s compu unattended and so i sat there and logged in gmail. as soon as i logged in, Shainky pinged me and we chatted for some time. she told me that she was planning to go to Langar held at gurudwara as it was Gurunanak Jayanthi and she invited me to come along with her group. I wasnt very interested at first, but later when she told that Sultan and Singla would go, i also thought of going. Then i invited Dabba to come along with us and so he also joined us, ofcourse with his better half,Dhakan.

We reached gurudwara and bowed in front of GuruGrantSahib, the holy book of Sikhs. Then we sat little while to listen to the songs that were being sung by the group at the dias. It was nice soothing music. After listening to it for 10 mins, we got up to join the queue for the people who were waiting for the langar lunch. Our plan was to become volenteers first, and after some time to have our lunch. However it wasnt as easy as we had planned. Very obviously there were many volenteers there and so we were asked to wait. The wait as always was very long and what made it longer was that the wait for really around 45 mins long. And after we crossed the first gate, we not only had to wait longer but we started suffocating also. However it was totally worth it.

Firstly, I got to see Baccha in suit and she really looked beautiful. Secondly, I got to do what i always like, volenteer. Thirdly, it reminded me my days in mangalore car festival where i used to volenteer to distribute food items. ofcourse there i used to distribute the one which is most easy, the laddo, u just give one to each and people are ready with their hands cupped to catch it. But with curry items, it is difficult as u have to serv the right amount and also keep asking if they require more of it. However today i selected the difficult part as there was no easy way out. So i started distributing daal. I distributed for around 15 mins and then sat for lunch myself.

Lunch consisted of roti, daal, aalo ki sabji, rice and prasad. It was very tasty and since we were very hungry, the food became more tastier. After lunch, i again started distributing for some time and then we came back to hostel.

If i had not slept early last night, i wouldnt get the chance to visit langar at all.

i was thinking about should i also maintain a secret blog unknown to anyone other than me. but i didnt find any reason to do so. infact i found why it will be a mistake for me to do so. as far as i know myself, i keep very little secret inside my stomach and most of “should be kept” secrets are known to one or other friends of mine. so it is deffinetly not a reason for me to maintain such a blog. another reason why someone can maintain a blog is to write down some of the most bad things he has imagined or would like to do but isnt allowed to do in normal life. but then, i think, if those are bad things why should anyone think about it, more-over spend time thinking and writing about it in a blog. while thinking this is when i realized that the most horrible things done or imagined by one which he would like to keep it as a secret are the ones he committed when he was alone.

this reminded me of the shloka in sanskrit–” the crime committed when one is alone, is the one which haunts the person most”.

that is one plus point i feel christianity has. their tradition of confession in church is very good to get free from such horrible experiences.

i feel like i am writing this from heaven. this might just be silly but i thought that i should mention it here. i luckily got a chance of laying my hands on dabba’s philips headphone and i wanted to listen to kailash kher’s saiyyan and tu meri jaan hai. Coincidentally the volume was maximum. the first line i heard made me reach heaven, that i swhen i thought i should enter this in my blog.

It seems that I might be the last person in our group who has not tasted alcohol yet. Well I dont say it as an achievement as I have not gained anything from this, other than a little self esteem that I still have some part of my brain under my control. However the war so far against so called bad habits (i no longer think controlled drinking and smoking is a bad habit but anything in excess is bad and i think smoking and drinking habits are more prone to reach that level) hasnt always been one-sided and there have been times where in the barrier was almost broken, but luckily that time has not yet come.

courtesy ::: math point

Think of any 4 non-zero digits, where not all four digits are the same. Arrange the digits in descending order and ascending order and compute the difference. For instance, if the digits are 3,3,2 and 1,

3321-1233=2088

Repeat the above step by rearranging the result into ascending and descending order and compute the difference.

8820-0288=8532

Reiterating,

8532-2358=6174,

Strangely,

7641-1467=6174

The process terminates when the number reaches 6174. We can use another example,

9750-0579=9171
9711-1179=8532
8532-2358=6174

and Viola! We get the same result again! Can you figure out why this happens?

last time i wrote in this blog, i was feeling very sad and disappointed with life. this time the situation has not improved any better. but i know the reason why i am feeling so. i havent been doing any good with my studies and that is why being treated as a waste body by everyone. however as always i am waiting for my time and i know it is going to come soon. just need to be very careful so that i dont do anything very foolish so that i loose any good friends. just want to complete my final year as soon as possible with some passing marks. have got bored of this daily life of leaving without any purpose. present plan is to start studying for CAT but again finding very little interest to do so. however the good thing that has happened between the last time i wrote in this blog and now is, i have gained good information about share market and trading. will try to collect more and more info about it.

it is about a week now since i started feeling like this. havent been doing any thing lately. just trying to get involved in whatever i find little interesting but unfortunately havent found anything much also. i watch movies but am never interested in it. i had thought IOTA would give me some chance to work on something seriously but unfortunately it is being postponed. I think this will continue till i reach back home on 28th. will have lots of things to do there. especially since i have my cousin bro’s marriage to attend. let us see how it turns out.

26th March — TCS(package–Rs. 3.15 Lakhs pa)
TCS was the first company to come for recruitment for our year in the college and also the first company that i tried for. So my journey of campus placement started from it. Written was cool and easy, a piece of cake in fact. Most of the questions were easy and verbal section which i have always been weak had already answers marked in the question paper. So i got selected for interview. It was my first interview since my interview of NTSE which was way back in 2003. So i was little nervous, what made me more nervous was the wait of around 6-7 hours. So when i my name was called at last for the interview, I just wanted to go and give the interview and finish it off and i no longer thought of the result. The interview room was a big hall with around 5 tables kept little away from each other. So at a time, 5 students were being interviewed by 5 different panels. I was interviewed by a panel which consisted of 2 members. Both of them looked friendly. But I was so nervous, that when I was asked to tell about myself, I simply babbled something which overall had very little sense. I first told about my branch and some personal details. Then i told them about my schooling which obviously wasnt at all needed. I told them something about studying in Varanasi and Hubli. Then I started telling them that I am interested in Opensource projects and that I am an active member of NITDGPLUG. While telling them this, I was so nervous that i forgot the name “NITDGPLUG” and had to think for few seconds before telling them the name. This must have given them an idea how active member I was of NITDGPLUG. Then I told them about my intrests in Sudoku and puzzle solving. When I said so, one of the interviewer said that he will ask me a puzzle. He asked me about the why -1=1 when you find its square and then square root them again. I just told him that since we were finding the square-root of a number we were bringing the possiblity of both positive and negative numbers into the answer and only one of them is right, which in this case is 1. Then he asked me if i knew C and C++ programming languages. I told him yes and so he asked me the definitions of some technical features of C++. I told him in my own words, some of them right and those which i didnt knew properly, i told him how much I knew and then said that i didnt know anything more. Then he asked me to write a program to sort an array using bubble-sort. I wrote some code, but didnt check it with any values. Then he asked me if I was sure and then he asked me to check it once using an example and also explain it to him. When I tried to explain it to him using an example, i found that i hadnt written that program correctly and i tried to correct it. He gave me some more time to correct it and asked me to explain it again. After that, He told me to always check a program with an example before saying it is right. The he asked me what subjects i have learnt in my college. I told him mot of the subjects i had learnt till then. He asked me if I knew DBMS properly, I said no. The he asked what else I knew. I told about OS and unix. I told them that i have been using Opensuse10.3 regularly. They asked me many questions from Unix and its commands. I asnwered most of them as i had used most of them myself. Well that was the end of interview. I had very less hope of getting into TCS after the interview because i knew that i had screwed it big time. The only hope I had was that i am from Comp Sci and they might give some preference to me. And that is what happened. TCS took 200 students from our college and I was one of them.
30th July—Tejas Networks(package-Rs.5.5 Lakhs pa)
Well Reddy had asked me to prepare seriously for this company as he had said that not many prefer it and there is a very good chance of getting into it if i knew networks properly. I had taken his suggestion seriously and had studied networks lectures in holidays. However, I wasnt eligible to sit in it when it visited our college as it had kept a cut-off of 7.5 CGPA. So it rejected me.
4th August—NOVELL(package-Rs.6 Lakhs pa)
Before Novell came to our college, there was a lot of confusion in our department. It seems that Novell had asked for a list of 40 students available and ofcourse these 40 students were selected on the basis of their CGPA. And i stand at 52nd-53rd position in our dept according to CGPA. and since some of them werent intrested and some of them had got placed in Tejas, I had somehow reached the 44th position and still had to convince 4 students above me in the list, to not to appear for the company so that i cold get a place in the list. However i wasnt interested in any such business. But still i thought of atending the PPT of Novell and in the PPT, no conditions were told and hence i was able to write the written exam. Actually, according to me, this was the only company in which i had a very very bleak chance of getting selected as i had tried to do an internship in Novell during summer, though i hadnt done anything useful. However written according to me was easy and there was also an essay to write about linux in it. So i wrote about how i have been using linux for past 8 months and reason why i was relutant to shift to linux because of addiction to AOE and blah blah….. End result was that i couldnt clear its written. So again I got rejected.

SAMSUNG– wasnt interested as i didnt like the work we had to do there.
CSC–wasnt interested as its package was very less.
AMAZON–wasnt allowed to sit. because of low CGPA.
MICROSOFT–since the written was subjective, couldnt clear it.
ONMOBILE–had lots of hopes to get into it as the its written consisted of only puzzles. luckily cleared the first round, but i did it only because i had copied the answers from Shilpa. however my puzzle solving ability was tested and i came to know the reality in the second round. I didnt clear it and i was sure of it after the test itself.